Thursday, August 4, 2011

Vacuums

A statement keeps coming to me, time and time again.  Nature abhors a vacuum.  This is most evident stream-side.  Change is rapid in a riparian area as the water moves soil and rocks around making places for vegetation and trees to grab a foothold to bring stability to the situation. 

Life balance charts are a reflection of the same process.  I started the process of change a couple years ago.  Longer than that, when I look at all the things I have tried to change over the years.  Relationship and job status are most evident then and today.  What I haven't figured out yet is when you make a change in the balance sheet and then a corresponding change is made in response, how do you know if that change is for the better or worse?  How do you know the response is for the better or worse?  Time and perspective are on your side.  That and faith in the process and Self are all that really matter.

Embrace the change!

4 August 2011

Thurisa reversed heralded accelerated change and a reminder to pause before jumping in head first.  Ever wonder why that is a good idea?  Irrational activities can really mess things up!  Slow down, breathe, reflect, and then dive when you are sure diving is a good thing.

Hagalaz brought some anger into my day.  I am angry at myself and at someone else.  I can do something about my anger directed at both.  Be proactive with one and dissolve the other to move on with life.  I am responsible for my actions and reactions.  That is all.  I lack the ability to directly impact the actions of others as they are theirs, not mine.  Evaluate the situation.  Accept the things I cannot change.  Forgive the actions of others.  Remember the lessons I need.  Celebrate the time and energy I put into the situation.  Bless it and move on to the next great thing. 

Gebo brings commitment.  What am I committing to?  The job?  Yes.  Focus upon the tasks and complete them in a timely manner as they need to be done.  My friends and family? Yes.  I have even called for help from a few.  They have been awesome and come through for me.  Even one whom I haven't seen in three years!  My self and Self?  Yes, yet these are the hardest to truly commit to because when one commits to oneself, it is easy to break that commitment because no one will be there to be upset with you when you do.  Its a shame, really.  I commit to creating a life balance and to pursuing my goals.

Thurisa reminds me I am still not quite ready to cross that threshold.  I have some work to do, contemplation, wisdom to gain, and compromise to make.  Perhaps I need to re-evaluation at decision I made.  Then again, perhaps not.