This morning I drew the following runes: Uruz reversed, Nauthiz, and Inguz.
Uruz is the rune of strength, man/womanhood, and the ox. Reversed, it cautions going about oblivious to life. It also counsels thinking about your relationship with your Self. Self, you ask? Yes, Self. Self is the higher being of your self. It is that part of you that is within which observes life and causes you to have those "ah-ya" moments. It is your gut reaction. It is recognizing that, yes, you can do the new job you signed on for even though it involves dealing with the big-bad arch nemesis of your chosen profession. And it involves managing people. So what is it came before you were ready? You wanted a challenge, right? THAT is why Princesses wear hiking boots!
Nauthiz makes another appearance today. Have you dealt with your shame today? Mine would be saving things for the last minute...again. It seems I am always waiting until right before a social gathering at my house to do some prep work that could have been done last night. Uffdah! I need to accept this trait in me and either live with it or change it. Not quite what the interpretation indicates, but, not every day can we look at some deep dark secret of our past, embrace it, and move on. However, the dreaded ex did come up in conversation tonight. I am happy to admit that I am handling that much better these days. A good bunch of friends and a good man can help with that, although, you really must do it yourself! Oh yes, when the pie doesn't turn out, it isn't so bad, it can go back into the oven for another go...
Inguz marks a time of renewal. Renewal in realizing that you have made friends here and are a welcomed addition to your work environment. Renewal in feeling wanted and welcome. Renewal, knowing that pies are forgiving and you can cook them again... Renewal in faith in yourself. If you don't have faith in your own abilities, how can you have faith in someone else enough to provide the emotional/spiritual/physical/verbal support they need?
Tonight's rune is Raido reversed. It appeared yesterday, in the Health rune. Tonight, as a reversed presence, I am warned to attend to personal relationships and I am in control of how I respond. Perhaps it is time to trim the plant back so the roots can develop more? Huh? Perhaps I need to practice managing myself, especially my selfspeak. Why the self instead of the Self? The inner dialog from your inner critic NEVER comes from the Self. It is always from the self as the self has not matured enough to go beyond the critic, selfish nag that doesn't want to see you succeed. If I manage the inner critic, then the Self will flourish and I will be able see things in the world around me in a more positive light. Which leads into the Surrender portion of tonight's message. By managing the critic, I can surrender to a higher place through contact with the Divine. I will to will Thy will. Perhaps sharing my fears and worries with the Trouble Dolls will help. They can work things out while I sleep and I won't have to worry about them... Meeting the critic and asserting good statements after the critic has its say will make progress towards creating Harmony in my life and my relationships. Conflict through a variety of forms is what makes relationships fall apart. Even the relationship with yourself. I shall Surrender my worries and troubles to someone else's hands tonight and wake to a stronger relationship with my Self and a greater sense of Harmony.
